So now I have been a mom for a little over 14 months...well technically 23 months but I won't go there. I have had a little experience with being a mom in the earliest stages of life, I am questioning other moms. Sounds weird...but I'll try to explain.
So I was at lunch with my mom and Tommi was sitting in the high chair just grinning and I asked mom "Do all moms love their kids like I love her?" I knew not ALL moms do but it just came to mind. My mom of course answered "No way!" But it really got me thinking...how do moms give up their rights to their kids and how do they neglect them. I can admit I understand in times of despair wanting to just up and quit but if you think about it for more than 2 seconds you know that nothing lasts forever. They will stop crying (or whatever else they are doing).
I just am so amazed how much I love Tommi. She makes me feel like the luckiest mom in the world. Yes she has her times and it drives me nuts but I wouldn't trade being her mom for ANYTHING in the world.
I guess when I look around I find I am the minority. Not that others don't love their kids but just not like I do. I don't like to leave her...I do enjoy breaks but I am always thinking of her. Like today Tommi was a serious grump and driving me nuts so this afternoon TJ took over while I took a shower and got ready for church. I definitely took my time...showering and getting dressed. I knew if I went out to check on TJ and Tommi she would want me so I didn't but all I could think about is how cute she is and how much I want to be playing with her and hearing her amazing laugh. Or even if she was still in a bad mood I wanted to try to help her and cheer her up. It's just weird how much her presence makes me feel complete!
She is just so amazing. Everything about her makes me smile in some way!
So maybe I was not able to explain what I was originally thinking but whatever! haha
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