Monday, July 9, 2012

Coming soon...

I have decided to retire my blog and make a new one...the name of Babyfrazier2009 just is not us anymore. We have expanded and life is a whole new ballgame!

So coming soon is....

Saturday, July 7, 2012


So due to the fact a few months ago our computer took a turn for the worse. So we had to reset it to all the original stuff. well that meant stuff that was up to date 3 years ago.

Well we ALL know that means ancient in computer terms. I have been struggling along not being able to see some websites or if I can see them I see a warped version.

 Finally a good friend of mine helped me and I was able to get it all up to date. This is the reason my blogging has fallen WAY too far behind...I mean some is b/c of my busy life but I planned to update at least once a month. But anyway...I'm back and will be writing again...even if it is only for documenting for my own memory.


A recent July 4th picture :)

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Chocolate puddin...

So this evening I went grocery shopping with both girls. Tommi asked for chocolate pudding for "dessert" I told her if she behaved while we grocery shopped I would buy her some. Well she was so wonderful so she got her pudding. We got home and I brought both the girls in the house and the pudding...opened up a cup of it and told Tommi "talk to your sister while I get the rest of the groceries" So left Tommi and Miley for at the most of the minute...Miley in her carseat still. (bad mom I know!) Well as I walked into the house Tommi said "I didn't mean to get pudding on Miley." I thought in the split second I was like on her head or something. NOPE, WRONG! IT WAS ON HER MOUTH AND FACE! And Miley was happily licking her lips...OMG!!! After finally calming down and telling Tommi she could finish her pudding but was going to bed almost an hour early b/c this was not good. Tommi walked around for the next 20 mins randomly telling me she loves me. She sure was sweet! So Miley had her first offical taste of food....CHOCOLATE PUDDING. A snack she will not be having again for closer to a year and a half if I can help it! Thankfully Tommi knows she did wrong and promises to never do it again. I guess my lesson is learned do not leave your 3 year old alone with your infant!

Tuesday, May 29, 2012


I am tired of defending my babys size! She is petite, healthy, and perfect!!! It is amazing how the general public feels it is their "duty" tell me my baby is smaller than "normal". What is normal? Honestly, ALL babies are different. That is why in percentiles someone has to be in the 1% and someone has to be in the 100% both can be healthy! I LOVE chunky rolly polly babies! But neither of my kids are or were rolly pollies. They eat like it sometimes though. The figure we all strive for as adults is looked down upon in children. Long and girls just are ahead of the game! I hate that I find myself getting my feels hurt by peoples comments but I KNOW Miley is well taken care of and healthy as can be! I am not gonna start her on food before she is ready just b/c she is on the smaller side of things and I'm most definitely not gonna switch to formula for no reason but to please people I don't even know and people who don't know what they are talking about. Their are chubby breastfed babies and skinny breastfed babies, as well as chubby formula fed babies and skinny formula fed babies (not super common but it does happen). My public announcement for the day is...take a moment to think how your comment will effect the other person.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

4 months

Miley had her 4 month check up today. She was 11 lbs 10 ozes, 24 inches long, with a 15.5 inch head. A little petite ball of sweetness. The appt went SO well! The dr was pleased with her growth and development and says I'm doing great. Makes me wonder, why do I even worry? I know I have this...God made me to do this! I was put on this earth to raise my babies and be a good mom. I'm not perfect but honestly I AM a good mom! Enough bragging on myself and my awesomeness (kidding!) I went into this appt a little scared b/c at 2 months Miley had her appt with a different dr (due to her normal dr being sick) but I went with it b/c seriously how can you mess up a simple check up. Well the dr who saw Miley at 2 months (Dr.R) ruined the appt for me. He said Miley was thriving but if she kept at a slow rate of growth we would have to do some formula and he also kinda pressured me into doing all her shots for that month at once b/c the insurance companies were billing different and blah blah blah. I regretted my decision almost immediately...not b/c I thought it was gonna hurt her having all her shots on time but b/c I didn't want that for her. I spaced them out for Tommi and wanted to for Miley also. Well today Dr.H (Tommi and Mileys normal dr) was a dream come true...exactly why I love her! She said Miley is perfectly healthy and is growing like a champ. She is petite but she always has been and that is fine! Also she TOTALLY worked with me on the shots and we came up with a plan to allow me to seperate the shots....I could not be happier! I felt a million times better walking out of the appt today b/c I knew I was doing what is right for my child and that made me feel SUPER confident and sure my decisions as a mom! YAY for amazing doctors who care about their patients (and the parents!)

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Life lately...

I have been slacking on my blogging. Due to...#1 a tried brain and #2 b/c blogger changed it's layout and b/c I have a dinosaur computer I see things weird and can not find my way around. Life is good but tough right now...Tommi is quite the pistol as always but extra bratty lately. Plus she has decided since she controls her bathroom use she will take advantage of it and only go when SHE wants to. So we had a bad experience with holding poop for a week, hard poop, having to give milk of magnesia, then FINALLY some blow outs. It was a whirlwind of anxiety for me! I love her but God help me...she keeps me on my toes. Miley is such an easy going baby 90% of the time. She just hangs out. We are finally getting into a routine of eating and getting her to sleep during the day with out any fuss. BUT then she throws a wrench in the spokes and starts cat 20 to 30 min naps then is a little grumpy when she gets up till she eats again. It is not fun but honestly it could be so much worse. Today was really tough with Miley (on a scale of normal for us) She seemed to want to nurse ALOT and cat nap but be way tired when she woke up. It is crazy but as I have learned a bad day can easily be followed by a great day. So it all balances out. I do think something was up today...teething? gas? Not too sure but we survived and still feeling pretty good! I love my babies!!!
NOTE: I do not know how to make spaces between paragraphs now. I put them there and they disappear when I post it.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

The Frazier Sisters share site

I do not update the blog near enough anymore. But I do try to keep up my share site of pictures. I know I am bias but my girls sure are beautiful :)

Thursday, May 3, 2012

3 months

Miley is 3 months old now!! My sweet cakes is growing up....she is SO smiley and such a sweetheart! Still a pain in the butt with sleeping sometimes but at night she sleeps GREAT and for long stretches. I'm one lucky mommy!! My girls!!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

3 year check up...

Tommi had her 3 year check up today. She did WONDERFUL! She was such a ham talking to the dr. The dr really got to see how smart and funny she is. On the developmental questionaire sheet she is on a 4 year old level!! :) It was funny trying to ask her all the questions on the form and get her to "perform" the actions they asked. She kept looking at me like "Are you serious mom? You know I know this/can do this." She was 39 inches tall (90%tile) and 32 3/4 lbs (50%tile). So I have a tall girl on my hands...I like this! My girl is the most amazing 3 year old a mom could ask for. She is FULL of attitude and a pain in my rear sometimes but goodness do I love this little girl with every bit of love I have to love with. She is SO special! I can not put into words her amazing spirit! I hope she never stops dreaming and imagining like she does now!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Newborn/infant stage

So as I sat and nursed Miley the other day I realized I sure do love my sweet nursing/bonding time with Miley (and did with Tommi too). But the newborn/infant stage is not my favorite. I hear so many people say how much they love the baby stage but I just don't agree. They are just so unpredictable and tough. Don't get me wrong they sure are sweet and oh so cute. But I think the fun begins as they get older and interact and get on more of a predictable "schedule". I am not very big on strict schedules but kinda knowing how the day will go is nice.

Miley is in a really crazy stage right now. She does not like to be in the back of the car "alone" esp at night. Like tonight we had to go grocery shopping after church and she was fun and giggly in the store but the moment her car seat clicked into the car and I shut the door she was screaming. And since we live 30 min from church it was a HORRIBLE drive home. She just screams and screams. Then we got home I carried her into the house and she was fine sitting in her car seat for a min while I put stuff long as she could see me. I am hoping this ends soon b/c going anywhere could be a nightmare...esp since we are about to go to VB and 4 hours in the car is not gonna be fun if she screams. But since it will be daytime hopefully she will be better.

I definitely can not deny that this is the sweetest thing in the whole world. And I am enjoying this time of being so sweet and innocent. And like I said before I LOVE our nursing special mommy/Miley time and I do not look forward to that ever ending but that is why I just try to embrace every stage!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

3 year old!

Tomorrow Tommi turns 3. I can hardly believe it! I have been a mom for 3 years?!?!

If I were to dream up my 3 year old daughter I would not have even dreamed up something as amazing as Tommi. I didn't know it was possible to love another human being so much! She is the most amazing, sweet, spunky, funny, loving girl EVER! She is the worlds best big sister and daughter. I love her more than I ever knew possible! And that love only grows daily....even on the tough days! Those days only remind me that she is 100% her mommy's girl and God sure does have a sense of humor b/c I'm getting payback! But as frustrating as she is I would not have her any other way!

So I got an idea from my much loved Pinterest. It is 20 questions you ask every year on the child's birthday. I was anxious so I did it a day early but whatever. Tommi actually sat down and answered ALL my questions in one sitting...crazy! I laugh b/c she is SO impressionable. She just answers what is on her mind at the moment so some of her answers are so not accurate to what I would have thought, but most are right on. But they are her answers so I went with it.

20 Questions...answered by Tommi on 4/11/12

1. What is your favorite color? PINK
2. What is your favorite toy? MY PIGGIE
3. What is your favorite fruit? STRAWBERRIES
4. What is your favorite tv show? BARNEY
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? TURKEY SANDWICH
6. What is your favorite outfit? THE GREEN ONE MAW-MAW BOUGHT ME
7. What is your favorite game? MARIO
8. What is your favorite snack? FRUIT SNACKS
9. What is your favorite animal? COWS AND SHEEPS
10. What is your favorite song? TWINKLE LITTLE STAR
11. What is your favorite book? KANGAROO BOOK
12. Who is your best friend? LILLY ROCK HILL
13. What is your favorite cereal? YOU KNOW I LIKE YOURS AND DADDY'S (Honey Nut Cheerios and Shredded wheat)
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? BLOW BUBBLES
15. What is your favorite drink? LEMONADE
16. What is your favorite holiday? EASTER...AND I LIKE MY BOYS!
17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? BOOKS
18. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? TOAST (note she NEVER eats toast for breakfast)
19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? CAKE AND SUBWAY
20. What do you want to be when you grow up? LIKE AUNT HEATHER

Friday, April 6, 2012


Today I really had a realization how thankful I am for SO many things!

1...Thankful for our AMAZING military and the wonderful training they receive. A F-18 trainer jet crashed into the courtyard of an apartment complex which did burn down all apartment buildings (5 buildings) But the amazing thing...only 7 (including 2 pilots) were injured...NO life threatening injuries! The 2 pilots dumped the fuel over the interstate found the most open area for the crash to happen before they ejected. This all happen only 3 miles from my parents house. I am BEYOND thankful for the grace of God on all those in Va Beach!

2...The 2 sweetest daughters God blessed me with. So yes Miley is a handful and tough sometimes and Tommi has an attitude that puts me to shame sometimes. But they are really good kids. Miley is so good at going with the flow and is just so sweet and smiley most of the time! Tommi is such a good girl with polite manners and such a great helper. I can ask her to get things for me and she does willingly. She is just a dream come true! I could not be more proud of her.

3...We have been blessed with some amazing family to help us out! We have been blessed above and beyond our wildest dreams. Both my family and TJ's have our back all the time and we could not be more thankful for them!

God is SOOO good!!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

New love...

I did not have these with Tommi but I discovered my long lost love due to Miley needing to be covered when falling asleep but I didn't want to over heat her.

Aden+Anais swaddle wrap blankets

They are really big so they are wonderful plus thin and soft and only get softer with washing! They are big enough to be used as a nursing cover which is a huge bonus! Neither of my girls have liked swaddling but I have heard these are amazing for swaddling...I can definitely see why.

These are gonna be SO perfect for this summer!

I will be gifting these to all new moms. They are pricey but SO worth it!! They are $49 normally but I have found the 4 pack for $34.95 on little bonus savings!

I still love receiving blankets...ok I'm obsessed with receiving blankets but these have wiggled a way into my heart also.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Wedding #1...done

My big brother married his beautiful lady this past weekend! Not only was the wedding wonderful but Tommi did AMAZING! I could not have asked for her to be better! She only dropped a few feather but she later told me she forgot. But she smiled down the aisle and stood up front like a big girl! Thanks to the amazing maid of honor...she totally took care of Tommi and made her feel comfortable!

Tommi was SO beautiful too! I'm a VERY proud mommy!

At the reception my bashful (esp in big groups) little girl danced the WHOLE time! She got out on the dance floor and didn't wanna come off! It was SO cute! Everyone loved watching her! She was in total party way she is totally like her uncle Chasey, living for the party!

I cried like a baby! My big brother is MARRIED! So awesome...but so weird!

Monday, March 26, 2012


Tonight I put Miley in her bed while TJ and I got dressed and Tommi walked up to her and said "Hey little sis!" in her high pitch baby talk voice she does with Miley. Well Miley got the biggest smile on her face and laughed!!! It was the cutest thing ever! Tommi was totally in heaven...she LOVES when she can make Miley happy!

It was SO perfect!

Friday, March 23, 2012


Finally :)

Long legs big sis and her mini side kick

I can not get over how much I love her little dimple!!!

Our day...

So we had a good morning today...a long walk with Miley in the pouch aka Sleepy Wrap and Tommi running freely like a wild child! I do not think she stopped talking/making noise for more than 2 seconds even when she was way ahead of me and I had no idea what she was saying. We live on an almost mile long drive way so Tommi is able to freely explore at a great distance with out any worries.

Well after our walk we came in and I fed Miley around 11:45. She ate ok but I didn't think much of it. When it came time for her to sleep she fought it a bit and was very fussy. But did end up falling asleep around 1:30, but woke up shortly after so I stuck her back in the pouch b/c she usually sleeps well in it. Little did I expect to be taking her out 3 hours later b/c she was going on 5 hours with no food.

I went to nurse her and the crying began. She would not even latch on. She would just scream and scream and scream. I could console her for only seconds with different positions or a passy. I was TOTALLY at a loss for what was going on!

The next few hours were kinda a mixed blur of pumping so we could try a bottle, trying to nurse her, crying, sleeping, and just plain craziness. She got a few mini meals in there from the bottle and me but not enough for me to call an actual meal. Poor thing!

Well now she is sleeping in her swing and I'm praying with all I have that she sleeps well and sleeps off whatever is bothering her. She has been "off" since she got her shots on Tuesday. I am hoping we get back to "normal" and I don't have to end up taking her to the dr.

I definitely think today has been the hardest day yet since she was born!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

My little rock

Tommi is my little rock!

Yesterday I was having a tough day, Miley would only sleep in like 20 min increments and when she ate it would last forever b/c she would just keep nursing on and off. Then TJ was working later than normal so I had no daddy help...I needed him and no one else would do. So with Miley strapped to me in the wrap and Tommi next to me watching TV (not looking at me). I started to have my own pity party. I just needed to cry. I was having one of those "what in the world have i done?" moments. I know all moms have them...wondering was I really prepared to have kids. So as I cried I guess Tommi heard me and looked at me and said "Oh mommy! What is wrong?" I told her I just wanted daddy home. She said "Mommy, daddy will be home in 2 seconds. Me and Miley are here. We love you!" Then she just laid her head on me and loved me. How in the world was I supposed to feel sorry for myself now?!?! I actually started to cry more b/c I realized how blessed I am! She may only be (almost) 3 but she is my little rock to lean on and remember I am SO blessed!

Funny/cute story...
When TJ got home and I had fed Miley and put her in her swing. TJ walked up to me and put his arms around me in a big hug. Tommi was playing and looked up to say something to me and saw us and said "AWWW! Daddy loves you mommy!" and smiled! Then of course being a selfish 3 year old ran over and said "I wanna hug mommy!"

God has blessed me above and beyond!!!

2 months!

Miley is officially a peanut! But there is a whole lot of personality in her little body! She is SO alert now and just full of huge smiles all the time! It is amazing to say the least! Her little dimple just adds to the fun!

She is 9lbs 11ozs (10-25%tile) and 21 3/4 inches (10-25%tile), very healthy and strong!

In someways it feels like it was 2 months ago I gave birth but other times it feels like it was only a week ago!

She is an amazing little baby. Though still unpredictable and goes from zero to sixty in seconds when it comes to eating. She sleeps like a champ! Seven hour stretches at 2 months YES PLEASE! How wonderful!

She still looks like me! YAY! Maybe her hair will turn red like mine did...I totally hope so!

Oh how I love life with my sweet mini monkey!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Sleepy Wrap

When I was pregnant with Tommi my mom (like a first time grandma) bought all kinds of "gadgets" that she thought were cool and would help me out. When she showed up with not just 1 but 2 Sleepy Wraps, I was not sure how much they would be used. Well they have been a God send with both girls. I keep one in the house and one in the car b/c it has come in handy when least expected. (not totally needed but super nice to have extras) I just used it the other day when Miley was fussy and we were trying to grab something to eat. I was able to put her in it and keep her asleep while I enjoyed dinner.

It keeps baby super close and contained. Plus it is super comfy for mommy!

I seriously would highly recommend this to any mom out there! It is one thing I do not think I could live with out with a newborn! It is nice when older but a super saver when they are young and super unpredictable!

They are now called Boba Wrap.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012


Tommi is amazing! Almost 3 and I can not believe it but loving it! She is so creative and can pretend and make things up at the drop of a hat! She still talks like she is so much older and amazes us everyday. She has an insane memory. After reading her a book once she can basically recite it word for word back! Maybe this is normal but I'm amazed! She also can remember stuff we said or did from long ago. We have to watch ourselves and limit our conversations around her if we don't want her repeating them or saying "What are you talking about?" She listens carefully and wants to be in ALL conversations! Currently Tommi LOVES Subway! Anytime we are trying to figure out where we are gonna eat Subway is always the first thing Tommi says! It cracks us up b/c it's not like it is that exciting but she LOVES it! May be b/c of the Doritos but still she also eats almost a whole 6 inch oven roasted chicken sub by herself. It is crazy!
I am having a blast watching her as a big sister still. She is SO good with Miley and loves her to pieces. She always has to "share" with Miley when it comes to compliments. We can't just say Tommi is beautiful without her saying "Miley is beautiful too" Gotta love my sweet but very sassy almost 3 year old!

Miley is almost 2 months and is so sweet. She is starting to smile and coo. It melts my heart b/c she doesn't just give little smiles they are big open mouth grins! It is the best!!! I have yet to get it on film but I'm trying! She sleeps VERY well at night with a good 6 to 7 hour stretch in the beginning of the night! YAY for sleeping babies!! She does sleep with me after a couple hours in her bassinet thing. I love the sweet cuddles!
Things are going well! She had a tough day today when she wouldn't stop crying and nothing seemed to help, we tried nursing, burping, gas drops, colic calm, changing clothes, cuddles, etc. but eventually she let out a massive burp (after over an hour of crying) and then calmed down and went to sleep in the Sleepy Wrap! I LOVE my sleepy wrap!!!

My girls are the best...if I say so myself! I love being their mommy!

Sunday, March 11, 2012

My girls

Figured since I have not been posting very much the least I would do was add a picture!

Take your tummy off...

Tommi talks the WHOLE time we are in the car going anywhere. Most of the time TJ and I are cracking up b/c she is a mess with the things she comes up with.

Tonight Tommi was asking about what Miley did when she was in my belly. Did she sleep? Did she hiccup? Did she whine? name a few of the things she asked about. She asked "Did she spit up?" I said "Maybe" not expecting her to ask much more but she asked "How did you wipe it up?" So I said "Well I didn't have do you think I should have cleaned it up?" Her response was "Well you could have just taken your tummy off and then put it back." haha She said it like it was so simple and such an obvious answer. Oh how I love her!!

Sunday, February 26, 2012


This morning TJ had to go to a friends house to pick something up so he asked if Tommi wanted to go with him. At first she said she needed to stay here b/c mommy and Miley might need her but I assured her we would be fine :) So she decided to go.

They had been gone maybe 20 minutes and TJ texted me and said "She has not stopped talking the whole time." I told him she was loving her daddy time and he said "She has told me she loves me at least 3 times already."

I'm just so glad she is still feeling so loved and gets these little one on one outings with TJ. Even if they are just simple and not too exciting she still gets that attention she needs!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Thank you God!

This evening Miley was quite a handful. She wanted to go back to sleep but struggled so my mom tried to help her then TJ and neither one could do it. So of course I had to step in...which is SOOO frustrating! Sometimes she only wants mommy and this is so hard on me when I just want to relax.

But I realize I am in a position that many would die for. I am a mommy and need to remember to thank the Lord for the most amazing privilege ever! And even though only hours ago she was screaming now she is sweetly sleeping next to me.

Thank God I was able to grow and nurture a perfect little baby and thank God my babygirl has amazing lungs she can cry for me with. Even if she only wants will not be like this for long! And how amazing is it that she finds comfort with me. I am SO blessed!

Not that I will not be frustrated with her tomorrow...but I am always thankful for the blessed gifts God in trusted me with!

This was not today but she sure is sweet!

Monday, February 20, 2012

One month

Sweet Miss Miley is officially a month old. It seems like she has been around forever but then again I feel like it was just yesterday I had her.

She eats every 3 hours generally and sleeps pretty well in between with a few bright eyed awake times but not for too long. When she gets tired she is not the best at going back to sleep on her own and is pretty picky on how she wants to be put back to sleep. I have to bounce around, pat her butt, and snuggle her in a blanket. She is pretty picky on wanting me too. She will throw a fit when T tries to put her back to sleep and as soon as she hits my chest she is out. It is frustrating for us both at times. But if we catch her soon enough she will sometimes fall asleep for him. At least she loves staring at him when she is awake.

We did go through a growth spurt (i think) this week when she nursed every 2 hours and for almost an hour each time. Leaving me an hours (maybe) between feedings. She would get super frustrated too. So I thought my milk supply was screwed up but all is back to normal and no supply problems!

Big and little sis

Note big sis likes to pick out her own outfits and majority of the time I just let it slide! Definitely not worth the fight.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Life with 2

Things are going well! I am SO excited and feel accomplished that I have been able to handle it so well.

Tommi had her first true jealous moment last night. We were giving Miley a bath and Tommi was trying to help. I let her pour water on Miley's feet but she took it upon herself and poured water over Miley's head (only trying to help)! Scared me half to death but Miley was fine and actually didn't inhale/swallow any of the water. So I immediately sent Tommi away...she got super upset and when I asked her why she was crying she said "B/c big sister wants a bath and little sister is getting one." I was shocked b/c Tommi loves helping me bathe Miley and did until she got in trouble. She came over to say sorry to Miley afterwards and started crying b/c she felt bad for pouring water over her head/face. I love her big heart! Of course Tommi got a bath afterwards and got some good mommy time!

Miley is such a great sleeper. She slept from 10pm-6am last night and normally the stretch is at least 5 hours at night. I am trying not to get too used to this b/c well this may not last but I sure hope so.

Miley has taken after her big sis and sleeps with us. I try to put her in her sleep n play thing at the beginning of the night but she doesn't last too long. She likes cuddling too much! With Tommi I thought I was doing something wrong but I am confident she will be fine and will not sleep with me forever. Miley sleeps well, I sleep well, and TJ sleeps well, so it works for us!

Nursing has been easier this time but still is stressful but we are getting into the swing of things and I'm calming down a bit with worrying. I just want to make sure my baby is getting enough and I'm giving her the best. She is sleeping great and wetting diapers great so I know she is doing good.

Tommi is still cracking us up daily. She comes up with stuff that we have no idea where she learned it. She makes me so proud!

Friday, February 10, 2012


While Miley sleeps on me peacefully I figured I would take the moment to document the past week we have had.

Miley has decided to scream blood murder sometimes in the evenings. I am not sure what is going on, I assume gas. I have debated whether it was colic, reflux, normal, or some other issue. I still have no idea. It is not for hours at a time more like here and there sometimes 30 mins or so. It does seem like hours sometimes though. But usually nursing or laying on my chest or just waiting it out while holding her works to calm her down.

Hearing her horrible cries of what seems like pain is SO hard on both TJ and I. This too shall pass! Which is SO hard to remember in the middle of it all but it is so true. The last 3 weeks have flown by so I know the coming weeks will too. I am trying to cherish this time b/c she will be a sassy almost 3 year old like her sister soon.

During the day Miley is such a sleeper, she eats then sleeps then eats etc. with a few awake moments in there. So generally she is a great baby but the evenings get tough...hopefully as she gets used to being out in the world the screaming will pass. I can do fussing or crying but screaming is hard!

The night she is pretty good too. Usually eats around 11 or 12 sleeps 5/6 hours then gets up and eats sleeps another 3 to 4. Her sleeping changes with the days. When we first brought her home she thought 3am was awake time then she was good for a few days but now thinks 530ish till about 7 is awake time then she goes back to sleep. So I am hoping this changes soon b/c I don't mind getting up to feed her but I wanna go back to sleep when she is done not hang out.

So say a prayer for all of us that the screaming spells end and there is no underlying issue that needs to be addressed.

Does it matter?

Sometimes as a mom (or just a person in general) we wonder if the little things matter. Some days I am on my pedestal think...I am awesome b/c I am taking care of kids who can not do it for themselves and a mom is a VERY important role. But then there are days I wonder if cleaning up spit up and kissing boo-boos is worth my time or if I could be doing something more important and productive.
(as I sit here feeling lazy b/c I have a baby sleeping on me and I'm playing on the computer...I know my house needs to be cleaned...but she is too sweet to move.

A friend of mine posted this on her blog and it reminded me. As long as I am doing all my "non-important" jobs to his glory it is VERY important. I do know raising my girls is important but like everyone moms have their doubts about what they are doing. I LOVE my job and wouldn't trade it for the world...even when Miley is screaming and Tommi is whining and I can hardly hear myself think :) But I can only say that after the moment is over and all is at peace!

Thursday, February 9, 2012

big sis/little sis

Tommi refers to herself as "big sis". It is too funny...when Miley cries Tommi will yell from across the room "Big sis is coming.

She refers to Miley as "little sis", telling her "It's ok, little sis" or "Where is little sis?"

I love it! It is really funny to hear Tommi calling herself big sis. She sometimes gets in modes calls herself big sis when she is asking for something or needs something. Like "Big sis has to go potty." or "Big sis wants something to eat."

I love that she has embraced her role so well!


Tommi was 'exercising' today and said "I'm doing yogurt!" I told her it was called yoga and she said "I can't remember that, so I'll call it yogurt."

I have no idea where she even heard of yoga...she seriously cracks me up!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012


I have never felt the need to "justify" my kid(s) names. They are MY kids and no matter what people think I put ALOT of time and thought into their names.

But I have to post about this b/c it is amazing to me how much other people care.

Someone I attend church with (YES Church, of all places) was on a website and posted a big thing about Mileys name. Now I knew I would get comments with Tommis name b/c well it is typically a boys name. But not Miley. I knew most people would think "oh like Miley Cyrus" and that was a reason I questioned ever using the name when she came out years ago. But TJ and I both loved the name and it was his great grandfathers name which made it even cooler.

But anyway she posted how she was 99% sure I named Miley after Miley Cyrus. HAHAHA Note about me...I liked her song Climb and that was it, otherwise I really don't like her and the way she acts with the media and performing. I don't like her imagine and the way she talks drives me crazy. I personally hope Miley Cyrus is gone soon so my Miley doesn't have to be compared to her. So this was the first really funny thing.

Then she went on to say how we never even knew about TJ's great grandfather and only found that out later and used it as an excuse to name our child Miley. SERIOUSLY? No TJ never met his great grandfather but he is super close to his grandfather and has heard stories and seen pictures all his life of this man. She also said we have made it clear we don't like to use family names...just b/c my first born was not named after family doesn't mean my other kids can't. Plus we didn't really name our Miley after his great grandfather. That is where we originally heard the name but we liked it so we used it.

The post was really mean and hateful and honestly pissed me off. She even went on to say I make poor name choices for my kids. News flash...they are TJ AND MY children not yours so who cares. Plus you can keep your opinion to yourself b/c not everyone has the same taste in names.

Our names for our girls....

Tommi was a favorite of mine ever since middle school when I met 2 Tommi's who were girls and I loved the name from the time I heard it. It was different enough but yet not totally off the wall. It just so happen years later I married a Thomas who has the name through out his family. So in the end she could have been named after her dad but that is not where the name originally came from. I think it would be easier to explain if she was named after her dad but she was not. I liked the name and he agreed to it.
Jolene was just a name we both loved and also could "soften" the name Tommi for anyone who wanted to add the "Jo" to it. Plus I knew a girl in high school named Bobbi Jo and I thought it was cute.

Miley was a name I originally heard when I met TJ and we talked about naming kids (just for fun while dating) and he mentioned it was his great grand fathers name. I like it b/c it goes well with Tommi and is not too feminine but not too masculine. So part b/c it is a family name and mainly b/c I just like it.
Jade was a name TJ and I both liked and it went with the J middle name thing we had going. It also went well with Miley.

So now everyone knows where are names come from and those who wanted to gossip about it can do so as they please with the knowledge of where they originated.

My vent is over :)

Monday, February 6, 2012


All moms have those moments that everything is going right and we feel blessed beyond what we deserve, in those moments I love to brag about my babies.

Right now I should be napping but it is so nice to have some mommy time where I can just relax...for a few moments.

Today has been amazing I can not be more proud of the big girl Tommi has become. She is not patient, I know she tries but she does not have a sense of time and also thinks we are all at her beck and call all the time. Having Miley has taught her to wait her turn a bit more and I am thankful she has accepted waiting pretty well. It doesn't mean she doesn't ask 100 times while waiting but she doesn't throw a fit or get upset.

When I said it was naptime she just got her stuff and went to bed. Which NEVER happens...she always has demands of some kind. So this was a huge blessing! Even if it only happens less fight is worth it.

I just can't get over how blessed I am. The transition from one to two has been a whole lot easier than I had expected. Yes I am only almost 3 weeks in and have not been alone too much but still I'm just thrilled. Tommi has taken on being a big sister so well and really is a help and has not gotten jealous of Miley. But I have tried really hard to make sure I get extra kisses in and cuddle when I'm not holding Miley. Funny thing is I think I'm a better mom to Tommi now than I was before Miley. I just feel like I've been better about making sure she feels extra special and we play more together one on one. Overall I'm really enjoying being a mom of 2. Not that it is not overwhelming at times though.

I guess it has helped ALOT that it is TJ's slow time at work...b/c he has been a huge help!

Life is good and God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams!

Miley had been fussy right before this and Tommi sung her back to sleep!

Mom brain

I just realized I posted twice about Miley laying in bed with Tommi at night. Proof mommy brain is in full effect! But at least I'll remember it years down the road!

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Bedtime cuddles

Every night Tommi insists her little sister lays with her in her crib while we pray and sing songs. It is too cute! Tommi kisses and hugs her the whole time. Then when it is time for us to go out she says "night little sis" over and over. It is so sweet to see them together.

Miley actually enjoys it too. If she is fussy it will usually calm her down to lay with her sister. Most of the time she is sleeping and she just sighs and cuddles up in Tommi's arms.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012


Miley most definitely looks just like Tommi as a newborn. She has the same hair line...not much on top but a bunch in the back and it is almost black just like Tommis was. She also has the same shaped dimple in her chin but still the little round cute chin Tommi had.

She also has some different distinct features. Miley has the sweetest birthmark right under her right eye. It was the first thing the nurses noticed! I LOVE it!

She also has a dimple in her right cheek when she smiles or makes certain faces. It is so sweet!

Miley's cheeks are more full than Tommi's and her eyes are a little more round than Tommi's too.

I love that my girls look alike but also have their own looks. Tommi I thought was a spitting image of TJ but I don't see TJ as much in Miley. Maybe Miley will look a bit more like me :)

Whatever she looks like she is already so beautiful! I'm curious to see what color her eyes will be...right now they are REALLY dark so I think they will end up brown but we will see!



Monday, January 30, 2012


Daddy and his girls

Tommi loves when her sister gets to lay in her bed with her at bedtime!

Miss Miley

Things have been a bit wild around here trying to adjust to life. But things are going extremely well! I am MUCH calmer this time around. I feel like I have it together a bit more than I did with Tommi. I'm shocked to say the least. I definitely do not have it all figured out and don't feel like I do but I'm learning to take it one step at a time and not get to anxious about what is to happen next. Our life is unpredictable for now but I know it will get more in a routine before too long. I don't want to miss a I'm trying to enjoy these moments! The newborn stage is gone so fast!

TJ has been a dream come true. He has really stepped it up an extra notch to help me out. It is wonderful! He has always been great but he really is above and beyond what I expected. Partly b/c I stopped being "scared" of telling him exactly what I need. So when I need something done instead of just expecting him to read my mind I just tell him what I need. Sounds like magic huh?

So about Miley...she is a great baby in general. It is rare that she cries but when she out b/c she goes full force! She generally had been eating every 3 to 4 hours but the past couple days she has stepped it up to about every 2 hours. Guess she is trying to balance it all about.

We started out with our days and nights mixed. She wanted to "party" in the middle of the night...usually around the time she was born 3am she would have an extended wake period. But that only lasted the first couple days and now she is a great sleeper. She usually goes 4 to 5 hours at night. So I am VERY thankful for that.

Tommi is head over heels in love. I knew she would love her sister but not like she does. She is forever "checking on baby sister" and making sure she is ok. If she fusses just a tiny bit Tommi walks over and "shushs" her or sings to her. It is amazing! I wish I could bottle up the sweetness of them together. My heart melts every time they are together. Tommi wants her baby sister to go everywhere with us (she of course has to but it is sweet Tommi always asks to make sure her sister is coming) She also LOVES showing her off to everyone, even people to see them everyday like TJs parents.

Tommi has been a bit of a pickle lately. She has found quite the attitude. It doesn't seem to be a jealousy thing but she is definitely testing her boundaries. Her alter ego is named "Matilda" haha 85% of the time she is our sweet Tommi but Matilda comes out. She is 2 and I have to remember that!

Life is so good!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Sick big sister...

So I officially went into labor at one of the worst times...God knows best but I still wonder how this was the best. But I do trust him!

Thursday morning my mom had to take Tommi to the dr b/c her eyes were puffy and she was running a fever. So we wanted to see what was up. Well come to find out what I thought was probably some sort of allergic reaction or something simple was an ear infection and strep...both firsts for my little gal.

So this meant antibiotics and no visiting mommy and monkey sister in the hospital! My heart was seriously torn out of my chest...I was a mess! I dreamed of the day my girls would meet and how it would be in the hospital and never in my wildest dreams did I think my big girl would not be able to meet her little sister.

Thankfully I have the most amazing mother who took Tommi on and nursed her back to health as close to as well as I could as possible ;) No one can do it like the actual mommy hehe

So Thursday was kinda a blur for me. Tommi did get to come to the hospital and visit me in the waiting room...we took Miley to the nursery and then changed clothes before picking her back up. So I got to see Tommi and love her! She was REALLY sick and I hated not being with her! But we did survive.

Friday we were released from the hospital but I made sure to talk to the pediatrician before bringing Miley home to a sick big sister. He said basically lots of hand washing and trying to stay out of faces. He said all we can do is the best we can, babies have been coming home to sick siblings for years.

So we were able to have our girls meet on Friday...I wish I had it on video! Tommi was instantly in love and all about her sister! It was amazing!

The next couple days were tough keeping hands washed and Tommi away from Mileys face as much as we could. I didn't' expect her to be SO in love with her..esp since she was not feeling the best still.

Well Tommi has now recovered nicely and is doing great! Thank you Jesus for healthy kids! Miley did not get sick and that is the MOST amazing blessing ever! I can not be more thankful!

We are still battling with meds twice a day till Saturday but every dose is one less that we have to do!

I tell this all with the best memory I can...b/c a newborn and a sick toddler leaves little room for other thoughts.

I have no idea how we could have done it with out my mom...I can not express how thankful I am for her dealing with lack of sleep and a sick toddler (who is not good when she is sick...she is mean!) I honestly hope I can be half the mom my mom was and is when my girls have kids!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Monkey sister...

is FINALLY here!!!

Miley Jade Frazier made her grand entrance on January 19, 2012 at 3:08am!

She weighed 7lbs 4ozes and was 17 3/4 inches long...which I think is wrong but it is hard to measure a newborn so I will cut them some slack.

Her birth story is VERY quick...

I started having contractions about the time we were putting Tommi down for bed at like 930pm and they were just like all the braxton hicks I had and random and varied in intensity. So I went on...around 1030 they were less comfortable but still very sporadic from 2 mins apart to 15 mins apart, so I figured I would take a shower and wait for them to stop. They never around 1145pm I texted TJ and said that I think I needed to start timing them b/c they were pretty intense and seemed to come in a pattern now maybe.

Sure enough they were 5 min apart. They just continued to get more intense. I kept putting off calling my mom b/c I was so scared they would stop. TJ finally had me convinced I needed to call at 1245-ish. So she left about 130am. She called me not too long after and said I needed to just suck it up and head to the hospital these were too intense to be sitting around the house. So I listened and we called TJ's mom to come up and stay with Tommi. When I got up to get the final things together they moved to 2 or 3 min apart. So his parents finally got here and we left as quick as we was around 215am.

I don't remember the car ride much but TJ was most definitely speeding haha We got to the hospital and they got us in quick and I got into a room at labor and delivery. They got me hooked up on the monitors at 240am to monitor my contractions. They checked me and I was 7 to 8 cm dilated and fully effaced, so they started to put my IV in and started asking me questions so I could get the epidural I was so lovingly begging for :) Well that did not last long they had just gotten the IV set and my contractions were causing my stomach to do all kinds of weird things (ended up being my uterus pushing a baby out on its own) and I told the nurse I had to push. She went down to check me and called immediately for the dr. Only seconds later I felt something funny that then burst. They told me not to push but my body was doing it not me. So they got the dr in there and by the time he was set up I had one push and then my body delivered my sweet girl. (I told them as they got set up I could not do it with out a epidural it was crazy! But I had no choice!)

Not long after we got to the room the nurse looked at TJ and said "Sir you need to sit down your color is horrible" so he sat down and they gave him a Pepsi. I said "No way this is the last thing I need!" Well he did not miss the birth...he heard I was about to have her and he was by my side holding my hand! So thankfully he got to see it all and be with me. He was doing better by that point, we have no idea why he got low blood sugar, but thankfully the nurses were the best and took care of us both.

Miley had a super short umbilical cord so TJ had to cut it before they could even hand her to me. Which was very different...

I'll write more another time about Miley and the hospital and all the craziness life threw at me. But it is 10pm and I NEED to get to bed b/c my babies are sleeping and I need to take advantage of it!

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

I do and don't...

I want to go into labor and have this baby SO bad but then again after a day like today I don't.

Tommi woke up with a fever of 102 so I gave her some Tylenol thinking ok she is fighting something but will be ok. But then while sitting at the drs office I noticed her eyes were swollen...right above her eyelids/below her eyebrows. So she couldn't open her eyes totally. I let it slide thinking ok it has something to do with not feeling well. But they seemed to get worse as the day went on.

She didn't eat much today at all. Like maybe 2 chicken nuggets at chick-fil-a and some pretzels. Then a bunch of blueberries this evening.

Well I talked to my mom who I trust with helping TJ and me make judgement calls on what is worth worrying over. She said to wait until Tommi got up from her nap and if her eyes were not better to call the dr. Well the stinker slept from 2:30 till 5:45!! So the drs office was closed! But when she woke up her eyes looked even worse. They look almost like someone who had an allergic reaction to something and their face is swollen but for her it is just her eyes. Very weird. She says they do not itch or hurt and they are not red at all.

She is a bit off but I think she is battling some kind of cold...she has a fever and just feeling "off". But acts pretty normal, super cuddly and wants me but nothing weird. She is also sleepy...but I think again that is just part of the crud.

So as much as I want to be in labor I want it to hold off so she can get better! Ugh! I know others can take care of her but I like to be there for her when she needs me!

I gave her some benadryl before bed so hopefully that will help her eyes and I will not have to take her in tomorrow. But if they are not better in the morning I am taking her into the dr to get checked out. With the impending delivery I need to know what is going on so it doesn't get worse. If it is an allergic reaction I have no idea what could be causing it b/c she has had nothing new to eat and I'm not using anything new in the house.

Being a parent is hard!

40 week appt..

I had my 40 week appt today...I am technically 40 weeks and 2 days. But I had to see one of the drs who is chronically late. My appt was 11am and I got called back about 11:20 so that wasn't bad but then we sat in the exam room for another good 30 min before she came in ugh! Tommi came with me b/c I figured it would be a standard quick check of heartbeat and measurement. I was gonna deny being checked for progress. But since TJ only had one job this morning he met me at the drs office.

When they called me back the nurse didn't ask if I wanted to be checked I guess since I am past my due date it is standard. I know I could have denied it but whatever.

Well thank God TJ did come b/c Tommi would have been hard for me to handle by myself. So the dr checked the heartbeat and measured my belly and then after checking my progress and stuff she wanted to check the fluid levels (by u/s) and do a NST (non stress test) to make sure baby was content. So we ended up being there for almost 2 hours total! Not cool. According to this dr I am almost 3 cm and 80% effaced but that is all a matter of opinion I think, so who knows if I have made any difference in the last 2 weeks. She also said she was gonna try to loosen my membranes to move things I guess she did when she was checking me. It didn't hurt at all like people talk about. But I know the only way it will move things along is if Monkey is ready.

Tommi did really well through it all until the end she was getting restless while doing the NST but thankfully TJ was able to take her out to distract her. But I am so proud of her for handling it all so well. She cracked us up asking all about the jelly on my belly during the ultrasound and NST.

So the dr told me that since I'll be 41 weeks Monday she feels we need to induce...which I wanted to deny but she went on to tell me how by that point the risk of c-section is the same as a regular delivery and blah blah. I just went with it, with hopes that I will not make it to Monday. So while getting my u/s done she called to set up the induction but the hospital said they are too full on Monday and Tuesday so Wednesday is the day they have to put me in. I was happier about that b/c that gives her one more whole week to do it by herself. The dr told me to call the hospital Monday and see if they can fit me in but I'm not planning on it. I am set up and scheduled for Wednesday so that is what I am going with. The later I can make it the better off I long as Monkey is safe.

But I am praying harder than ever that I go on my own before then...even THIS week would work for me :) So any prayers will help...I DO NOT want an induction. Though they may try breaking my water before any meds are used I still just would rather just go into labor naturally. So it is a wait and see game.

I will be shocked if I make it to next Wednesday but it is all in Gods hands!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012


I took my weekly pictures this evening. When you give my husband a camera he can't help but take a million pictures so I always end up with a bunch of random weird ones.

Figured I would share one of his random ones of the massive size of my 40 week woman!

I have my 40 week dr appt tomorrow.

Tomorrow is my guess for when Monkey will be here...I'm not changing it but I don't think she will be here tomorrow. It would be very nice though!

Weird child

Tommi is officially weird!

While in the bath Tommi was very upset with me b/c I was washing her hair. She hates it...some baths she does great and some baths she flips out like I'm torturing her. Well tonight I was torturing her.

She was crying and trying to calm down, when she all the sudden got really upset again. I asked her what was wrong and she said "I had an accident, I just peed." I told her that is ok b/c she is ok and tried to make her laugh by telling her I used to pee in the tub too. She was devastated! She said "I don't like peeing in the tub, I wanna get out!"

Most kids pee in the tub and don't care. Well not my Tommi Jolene! :)

Tonight was a tough night...she was so tired EVERYTHING irritated her. She went to bed REALLY well with out complaining b/c she was just so ready to sleep. The best part of her being tired is she is very cuddly! So she ended up in bed a little later than normal b/c TJ and I were really enjoying the cuddles! :)

Monday, January 16, 2012


Today was my "due date" only 5% of people have their babies on their due date so I was not expecting to go into labor today.

So I felt pretty good today...emotionally and physically. Physically I have my pains but I think I was more uncomfortable with Tommi than I have been this time. I have alot less pressure which could be a good thing or a bad thing. But they say first-time babies engage earlier than 2nd and so on. So I am hoping the lack of inner thigh pressure is due to her just not dropping in until actual birth.

My mind is still here and there. I have myself convinced I will not go into labor anytime soon but then again am disappointed when it doesn't happen.

My mom said today she believes it will definitely be this week...I PRAY she is right!

Tommi is now telling me often "I want to meet monkey sister." "I can't wait to meet monkey sister." etc. It breaks my heart b/c all I can tell her is "soon" well I have been saying that for how long now? And how much longer will I be saying that?

It is so funny how I can be the voice of reason for others who are in these shoes but when it is my turn I'm just like everyone else. SUPER anxious and impatient!

Tommi has been a booger lately with a total attitude and just exercising her opinion. So I am hoping the birth of this child turn will be a turning point. What cracks me up is the thing that usually causes her to tantrum is PUTTING CLOTHES ON!!! She wants to be naked all the time so when we go to leave the house she doesn't want clothes on and if she agrees to it, it takes forever to get the "right" outfit. Over all she is amazing! Today was the first day in over a week Tommi has eaten half way normal. She has been bird eating for over a week and today ate a normal lunch and dinner! Yay!

Tomorrow we have no plans to keep us busy. I have been racking my brain to come up with something but I got nothing.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Day before...

Well I am officially due tomorrow! I was kinda hoping I would go at least a day early so I didn't have to deal with the everyday questioning and comments. But that is not the case.

I am an emotional mess with emotions bouncing from happy to sad in a matter of minutes! I went past my due date with Tommi and expected to be better this time since it was kinda expected that I would go over.

I guess today was just extra hard b/c I was so nauseous all day and having pretty strong contractions, not consistent but strong. Plus I just felt really I just wanted to cry. Which I did and it actually made me feel better.

Tomorrow Tommi and I are gonna do our normal Monday routine and hopefully just enjoy the day together. Hopefully I can keep my mind off things. I have to remember to take this one day at a time!

Everyone...I mean everyone has their guess on when she will come. Most say it will be this week...and I'm begging the Lord please let it be this week! I can't be mad if I don't go this week...b/c the Lord knows her perfect birthday.

Dr appt is Wednesday...with one of the drs I am not a huge fan of so it would be nice to not have to go to my appt but I can only dream :) If I do go it will be another date day for Tommi and I so either way it is good...either extra time with my first babygirl or meeting my second babygirl for the first time.

I am doing my best to be positive!!!!

Saturday, January 14, 2012


So I've been meaning to install monkey's car seat base in the car for a while now. Finally we got it done today. TJ and I both felt confident in installing it b/c we have done it a few times and each time it has been checked by a car seat specialist and it was done right. Plus I can easily install Tommi's new seat with ease and I know what to look for to make sure it is installed right and is tight enough.

Well I guess it has been a while b/c we went to install it and it was not as easy as we remembered. We could not seem to get it tight enough. We have it tightened to the max and it still moves more than it is supposed to.

We are gonna try some different adjustments tomorrow but I have to go out to the fire dept on Monday and hope the car seat specialist is in so I can get this thing in there right.

I'm a nervous nelly about car seats. I am all about having it installed as well as I can! If I'm gonna have my babies on the road I have to have them as safe as possible.

Now lets all hope I don't go into labor this weekend so that I can get this done on Monday and put my mind at ease.

With my crazy hormones raging I am SUPER worried about this. Now I am regretting waiting so long to get this done. I am sure I can get it done before I have her but it is just another thing I have to do so it is just annoying.

My vent for the day :)

Thursday, January 12, 2012


If there is such thing as over posting I am guilty. I write on here far too much but it is my outlet. I usually write on here just to get my feelings out and not annoy my mom or TJ with saying the same thing over and over. But I still vent to them too. :) So this is one of those get my crazy head feelings out.

As I sit here on the computer in complete silence with Tommi peacefully sleeping in her bed and TJ on his way home from dipping. I can not help but think 2 things..."I am so ready to have this little girl in my arms and bond with her." and "I am not sure I am really ready for this." So both ends of the spectrum.

I was reading an e-mail that I got this week about the 39th week of pregnancy. It had a list of signs that I'm getting close to labor...well I have in some way experienced all of them. So it really got me thinking...well ok come on labor start up and holy crap this is really gonna happen SOON! Soon being loosely used from days to weeks...but everyday is one day closer! Crazy!

I have been so exhausted the past couple days. I usually am not in bed earlier than midnight and that is "early" for me. The past 2 nights I have been in bed at 1030 and 11. And I've been back to taking naps when Tommi does, which I had not been doing.

So basically my mind is all over the place!

Pep talk and encouragement

I can not be more thankful for the amazing people who surround me...not always literally but they have my back.

This morning my mom gave me the peptalk I needed. I am kinda discouraged b/c my body is showing tons of signs of go but no official green light. I'm not very good with change so for me I think...lets just get this over with so I can adjust and move on with my "new" life. But my mom who totally understands and basically reminded me of what I say to all first time moms...ENJOY IT! You will miss the belly, you will miss the movements, and most of all you will miss the simplicity of life. She also told me to assume I will not have a baby till my due date so if she comes early then it is a special surprise. <---I was JUST telling a friend this only a month ago!

So I am done being disappointed! I am not looking past my due date...I think the fact that I could still be pregnant in 2 weeks is what is getting to me. But I can't fear that I just have to make it to next week and go from there! Thanks to my mom who took care of me at this point with Tommi and again this time! I am so blessed! (Lets see if I'm saying that when she is "living" with me for a week or so after Monkey is here but for now she is the best haha)

Only moments after getting off the phone with my mom Tommi walked up and said "Mama can I lay next to you?" I had been planning on getting up after I got off the phone...but nope not gonna happen. I am gonna embrace this time that I can get all the snuggles I want. So of course I moved right over and she laid next to me. Then looked up at me and said "Mommy I love laying with you!" I love her so much!!!! She has been super cuddly today and even when I'm in the bathroom she comes running and wants to hug me or just have me hold her (yeah I have had to turn her down on that one...holding a toddler while peeing is a bit odd haha)

Then I got a text from my soon to be sis in law, Heather, she told me she was thinking about me and hopes I am doing well and staying comfy! I feel so blessed to have so many not only waiting on Monkey to get here but thinking of me and loving me!

I am blessed!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

39 weeks

39 week appt was today...

nothing exciting...babygirl is just chillin. I have far too good of an environment for her. Her heartbeat was 137bpm and my measurement was on track. He did another pelvic and nothing has changed since last week. The dr said the cervix was still high. So monkey is just hanging out and enjoy her last days/weeks "attached" to me.

I am a little disappointed there was no change from last week esp since I have been having tons of braxton hicks and cramping. But the dr said it is normal to stick at this point till actual labor starts esp with 2nd children.

I did get my "final" pedicure this evening...I have been meaning to get a pedicure for weeks but it just hasn't worked out. Since we had nothing going on this evening I told TJ lets just go do it so I can check it off my list.

Today was nasty cold and rainy so we did not get the car seat base set in the car. I need to move Tommi's seat to behind the driver and put monkeys on the passenger side. Hopefully we will get it done soon so I can continue to check things off my list.

My body feels like it could go anytime but my mind has me convinced I'll make it to my appt next Wednesday. Just praying VERY hard I'm not pregnant in 2 weeks. Guess it is all wait and see now!

Monday, January 9, 2012


She slept pretty good last night...only woke up once at 2am to "cuddle". She woke up at 8 and I brought her to bed with me and she slept till 1030! We needed that so bad! She didn't cough much last night but when she sat up this morning all the yuck that had settled in her throat started moving and caused her to cough a bunch. But after she was up for a bit it stopped making her cough. She was pretty congested today but it didn't bother her as much as it bothered me hearing it haha

She was still a bit grumpy today like she didn't feel the best. So I let her nap in my bed with me when it was naptime. She woke up from nap a whole new girl! She was so refreshed and feeling good. She was playing and dancing around while I was making dinner. I kept warning her she was gonna get coughing but it only made her cough a little...her cough sounds SO much better and is not painful! YAY!!!

I do not think I have been so thankful for Tommi to be her crazy self in all her life. She is dancing around and acting like a chicken right now!

We are still not 100% but every hour she is improving! Thank you Jesus!!!

I am feeling a bit crazy. I am so overly nervous about going into labor...I guess I didn't have so much to worry about with Tommi. It was just TJ and I so I could get up and go anytime. This time I want to make sure it is "real" and then get Tommi taken care of. It is a bit overwhelming for me. If I am gonna have her this week going into labor tomorrow or Wednesday would be PERFECT! Mom is coming up and then I would feel SO much less stressed b/c heck when Big Mama is here I'm totally forgotten :) It would be the best way to not disrupt life too much. But God has a plan and technically I'm not due for another week.

I feel like this has all snuck up on did we get to 39 weeks already?!?

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Not yet....

I'm not ready for this baby yet.

With Tommi being sick and me noticing the impending delivery signs, I believe I'm kinda panicking. I need life to be at a "calm" before the storm. I need to get a good night sleep just one more time. I need to be in a good place.

I'm not any of that just yet. Tommi is sick and still wants "mama" all the time (for some reason while being sick Tommi has picked up calling me Mama all the time instead of her normal "mom" or "mommy") Neither of us is sleeping well due to (i think) her steroids making her antsy and not be able to sleep well, plus the cough which keeps her up making her want me. I need to just have a day to clear my mind. I thought this coming week would be "party week" for Tommi and I. We would make many trips out to...Chick-fil-a, the mall, Target, the park, and anything else fun I can think of weather permitting. But nursing her back to complete health is about the only thing I'm worried about now. I need her to be 100% or at least 90% so we are both ready for the crazy life that is about to start.

Of course here I am worried about going into labor this week and it could be another 2 weeks before I have her. I highly doubt it will be 2 weeks but you never know!

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Potty Trained

I stressed so much about Tommi potty training, but now I have to say it is one of the most amazing things ever. She is SO good about it. She has had her days that she slipped up but for over a week now she has been doing so well. I have found she likes to hold it for a couple hours sometimes but as long as she makes it to the potty I'm ok with whatever. She loves trying "new" pottys or at least seeing the bathroom everywhere we go so if we go out that helps.

So she is officially potty trained completely...just in time to give me a month break from changing diapers. haha I'll take it!

Now lets hope she does not "regress" when monkey comes...I don't think she will b/c she hates diapers so much. She still has to wear them at night but she is growing to be ok with that...if she wakes up in the middle of the night she will call for me to come take her to the potty so lately she has been dry in the mornings b/c she goes in the middle of the night.

On a monkey due date is only single digits away!! Eek! So soon!!! I think I'm a bit in denial with Tommi being sick I have not had alot of time to think about it. I have faith the Lord is gonna allow me to hold off till Tommi is totally better so I can focus on monkey.

Friday, January 6, 2012

Tommi and 38 week appt

Well Tommi had her follow up this morning and her oxygen levels were 97...PRAISE THE LORD! So VERY good (a healthy child is about 100). Her lungs sounded clear...another praise! Her upper chest/lower throat still have crud, so they gave us some steroids to help treat the swelling in there and help make the cough less painful. It will not get rid of it, but will help it be less painful for her. The cough has to just run its course. So lots of fluids and keeping her comfy is all we can do otherwise. But I can not express how thankful I am for the better/good report.

She is still in need of major prayers b/c she is really not feeling good and the cough is so painful it breaks my heart. But God is good and I'm so thankful for the progress we have made so far! Definite answer to my prayers!!!

She keeps telling me "Mommy, I don't feel very good!" :( and whenever she feels a cough coming on she comes running or cuddles really close. But I think the mommy cuddles do help (*big smile*) I have to admit I really like having healing powers...or so she thinks.

I also had a drs appt, my 38 week appt...late in the 38th week. I saw Dr.S...who I don't really like. She is "rough" and just not my type.

But Monkey checked out good. Her head is down...low, her heartbeat is strong, and my belly is measuring right on track.

They asked if I wanted a pelvic exam...out of curiosity I said yes. I know it really doesn't mean that much, esp since I hardly made progress with Tommi till I was in labor. Well I was 1 to 2 cm (she said just enough to call it 2cm) and 70% effaced. So things are on there could be tonight or a couple weeks. I am praying I can get my "big girl" better before the "little girl" comes. I also have a little more snuggle time I need to get in before I have to be shared :)

As I was leaving Dr.S stopped me and said "I'm on duty next Friday, if you haven't had baby by then would you want me to schedule an induction?" I told her "No, I'll just wait it out." But heck no is what I really wanted to say. Seriously? I will not even be at my due date, it is Friday the 13th, I want to go into labor naturally, and only God knows my baby girls perfect birthday. I think the dr was a bit shocked b/c when she asked if I was over it yet. I basically said I was b/c it was getting tough with a 2 year old and being this pregnant. But I'm almost 39 weeks pregnant few are not over it at this point...esp when they have another little one. I still am loving my pregnancy and I'm not "over it" per say but I am getting tired and kinda uncomfortable at times. Otherwise I feel really good.

Unless these braxton hicks get stronger and turn into real contractions, I have another appt next Wednesday, with Dr.N who I really like!

Thursday, January 5, 2012


So Tommi has had a cough for a couple days but it was only at night and when she was running around. I chalked it up to dry weather and the change of temperatures so often.

Well last night before bed it got worse so I gave her a low dose of Delsum which helped for a little while but then she was up a million times. Her cough would wake her up and she would want me to just check on her. At around 4am she called for me b/c she said she had to go pee, which I figured she was just awake and had to go so she wanted to go. Well I picked her up and she was SUPER hot. I took her temp and it was 101.4. She said she was thirsty so I took her out to the living room to get a drink and due to her crazy cough we snuggled up in the recliner and went to sleep. We slept off and on between coughing. So basically neither of us got alot of sleep.

Today we laid low and basically snuggled all day. She wouldn't let me out of her sight or more than a couple feet from her for long. She seemed to be doing ok other than coughing like crazy. Poor thing even coughed enough to make her self throw up. It was not cool but I figured we would ride it out and see where things went.

She went down for nap for about 40 min before coughing so much she wanted to be with me. At that point I brought her to my bed to see if I could get some rest out of her. She tried to sleep but had little luck with the cough. Finally after watching her cringe and cough enough I called the dr and the nurse said due to her age there was little I could give her to help her rest but I could bring her in and they would check her out if need be. So I decided that would be best for my peace of mind and maybe to get her some relief.

So 430pm we went to the dr and she did pretty well not flipping a lid too much and actually let them look at her. Well the dr heard some yuck in her lungs so they did a oxygen test and her numbers were 92-93, they informed me at 90 they put kids in the hospital. He did a blood test to see if it was bacterial or viral and it was viral. He diagnosed her with bronchiolitis or RSV.

She has to go back in the morning to see if her numbers get any better and if they drop anymore they will have to admit her. For now I am supposed to push fluids and keep her comfortable as possible. Hopefully the numbers get better b/c I really don't want to do the hospital thing. I am the only one in this family who needs to be hospitalized anytime soon.

I looked up about bronchiolitis and it is most common in those under 2, non-breastfed, preemies, males, those in daycare, kids from homes with smokers, etc. Every one of those is NOT Tommi. So how my kid gets this is beside me. She picked it up somewhere but who knows where.

I have a drs appt tomorrow which I planned to take Tommi to but definitely can't now. So TJ is supposed to meet me in town to hang out with Tommi while I go to my appt. That is if all goes well at her appt and I can go to mine.

For now I am hoping for a better night tonight...which is not likely but I can hope!

Tommi has LOTS of prayers coming her way and I know the Lord can touch her! I NEED her healthy for the arrival of her little sister!!! This is supposed to be a really exciting time!!

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Monkey belly

I wish I could get a picture of my belly when Monkey pushes out on the side b/c it is all round then this random "growth" off the side (usually my left side) I assume it is a knee b/c it is perfectly rounded. She does it quite often. If I put my hand on it and push it lightly she will stop but I have come to love it. It is not the most comfortable thing b/c it really feels like she is about pop a hole out the side. But it is too cute and really a signature move of hers. I do not remember Tommi ever doing that on the side. I'm going to continue to try to get a picture but we will see. I definitely wanted to note it b/c I will love remembering back on it.

So my wish for the birth of Monkey is the earliest of the 11th, which gives me a week. I am hoping she avoids Friday the 13th. But comes no later than 25th, which means I have 3 weeks to go. If I picked her birthday I would say either the 12th or the 18th.

I am getting super anxious and scared out of my mind...all in the same moment!


While doing my daily devotions...I really was "moved" and spoken to by the 2 verses that were part of my devotion.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I have read this verse so many times in the course of my life. I actually have a towel type thing in my kitchen that hangs from my stove with this verse on it. But it really was huge for me today. Just how no matter the bad things that happen the Lord has a plan for us and knows where we are going and it will be good. Right now might not be the best but my future is bright and that is a promise. I like that...I love things that can be promised to me...b/c few things in life can be. But knowing my future is in the Lords hands makes daily life and struggles ALOT easier.

The other verse was...

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

I don't want to be like those in "the world". I want to be different, I want others to see me and want to know what I have that they don't...that being the Lord.
I also LOVE hearing about God's good, pleasing, and perfect will. Right now I am bouncing back and forth on the timing of this child, I potentially love the age difference in my girls b/c Tommi can be so helpful, understand, and sweet. The excitement in her face of being a big sister is priceless, it is almost like she has a job she is SUPER proud of. But I also wonder 'was it long enough?' between them. Tommi is at a tough age. She is VERY opinionated, sometimes bossy, and a handful. We are potty training, testing our limits, and just learning about being independent without being too independent. It seems to be a tough time to have a newborn on top of all that. BUT God's timing is perfect. He planned monkey at the perfect time in his will...he knew long before I knew that she would be born in this time and it was HIS will. I can trust will is NOT perfect but his is! He didn't promise me that it wouldn't be tough or that I wouldn't feel defeated. He only said his will is good, pleasing and perfect.

I feel like this has really given me a peace about what is to come. I can not worry about the future and how I will do it with 2 kids. But I can focus on now and know it will all be good! I just have to put my burden on him and he will take care of us.

Also...I anyone who reads this PLEASE pray for a dear family to me,the Kiser's. The father was TJ's baseball coach this summer and I got to know his wife and daughter this summer at games. His wife had been battling different types of cancers for many years now and the Lord finally took her home. She was one of those woman I want to be just like. She had the brightest spirit and fought a VERY long and hard fight. I know she is out of pain now and feeling very good. But she left behind a wonderful husband, 3 grown children, a grandchild, and a community who loved her dearly. I feel even more connected to this family b/c the daughter who I got to know this summer has a little boy who is 6 months younger than Tommi and is pregnant again due in March. So in the midst of being pregnant she lost her mom, her best friend, and grandmother to her children. So this hits really hard at home for me. Just pray for them in this hard time. They are a truly amazing family!

Monday, January 2, 2012

Mixed reactions...

In only a matter of a week I have heard:

"Wow you don't look 9 months pregnant."
"You are so tiny for 37 weeks."
"You are all belly."


"You sure there is only one in there?"
"You look like you are about to have a litter."
"You look like you are gonna pop any minute."
"Now that is a 9 month pregnant waddle."
"That belly is huge." OK so that was my dad and he totally said it lovingly and not the way it sounds but it was funny.

I do not take offense to ANY of it. I don't like hearing the comments about having twins b/c I really don't think I'm that big. But I do not take comments to heart b/c sometimes I think people lack something to say so they don't think before they speak.

It is funny I get such mixed reactions.

Sunday, January 1, 2012


Ok so I guess I'm pretty much as ready as I'm gonna be. I still need to pack some final things for me and TJ and also pack Tommi a little overnight bag (she will be staying in a hotel with my mom). Which technically I could get that stuff done in the midst of contractions if need be.

Come to think of it I need to move Tommi's car seat and install the baby one also.

I have been saying how unprepared I am emotionally and honestly scared at times. But looking at it...I will live and I will make it through. My girls are gonna thrive and life is gonna be amazing with 2 kids. Yes it will be stressful...esp in the beginning but I got the hang out it with Tommi, so I will get in the swing of things again with this one.

I have been feeling really good compared to the constant inner thigh pain and pressure I had with Tommi at this point. Sometimes laying in bed or riding in the car I can forget I'm pregnant (for a VERY brief moment). I have back pain with driving due to the angle I have to have the seat and if I'm sitting on a hard chair or in a certain position for a long time. When I get up from bed it takes a bit to get all the joints moving and I have some major lower belly pain. But then after I get rolling then I'm good. I struggle to pick up things off the ground which cracks me up. I also struggle when getting up off the floor...another laughing moment b/c I have never felt so helpless in all my life.

But I am definitely ready to have my lap back so Tommi can sit with me and read books and not be off to the side in a strange position. I am also ready to be able to pick Tommi up and carry her with out being totally defeated and in pain. It really has become very hard to carry her...I try to have TJ do it as much as possible but sometimes she doesn't go for it.

I will miss pregnancy very much as I did with Tommi, there is NOTHING in the world like watching and feeling your baby move in your belly and knowing you have taken part in God's most amazing creation ever...the human life. But I also want to remember how hard things got in the end with a 2 year old and the normal tasks of daily life.

I still think I'm gonna go overdue this time too.